quietly laugh

1.

quietly laugh as i break their face

the fuckers, the tossers, that would underestimate

the mild mannered bastard who would bide his time

take verbal abuse, let them cross the line

even get pushed around just so he had the reason

2 hunt them down 1 dark lonely evening

& make them pay 4 what they had done

2 the other me that died, at the hands of a gun

2.

sometimes the rage would b all consuming

no control, no sense, no fear of losing

would hide a tool that could bruise or bleed

then be quickly lost from nosey police

lost from others who dared 2 blame & name me as the 1

the other me that died, at the hands of a gun

3.

no fun living with these memories each & every day

i used 2 close my eyes tight, sometimes they didn't go away

took a long long time 4 me 2 repent

then 4ever scared 4 my family, in case of revenge

people leave u alone if u have reputation

but once that's all gone it leads others 2 temptation

those uv hurt, those who could b bothered

all of a sudden find the courage & their efforts r doubled

4.

years have passed since i gave my last confession

eternally grateful because ur willing 2 listen

these words r offered so that i can continue 2 explain

how my own misconception caused me real pain

a selfish rhyme with no hidden meaning

just hope u understand how i was feeling

5.

i refuse 2 let myself slip back in2 the haze

& i am so so sorry 4 how i behaved

ur a lady who deserves so much love & respect

& all i showed u was hate & neglect

ive no need 2 repeat at what the time i could c

i was wrong, i admit it, but can't help being me